Dima: Phew! I know that was hard to write. My issues with my own mhtoer are numerous. Surprisingly, the only thing we've been able to agree on in the last 31 years is how I'm raising my son. So, she surprised me there! For a laundry list of reasons, though, she isn't really a part of my life and it took me a long time (and many thousands of dollars and years of therapy) to be able to make that decision. It hurt then, it hurts now, and even though I know it's the best thing for me and my own sanity, I don't think it will ever stop hurting.I think the hardest part is letting go of expectations and accepting that they will not change. Easy to say, really hard to do, and almost impossible to live with.Hang in there! xoxo
